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[sharpememory]

[Barron: hit by the honesty bomb. He's sitting on his bed, writing in his diary journal.]

So, guys. I basically disappeared off the barge. [He pauses to scribble something out in the journal.] Which isn't that abnormal, but it was weird. I spent a while at home not remembering being here at all. My brother turned out to be a total asshole who was willing to turn us over to the Feds, so he got taken out by my other brother. Who then got all into my business and made the hot high school girl I was really into break up with me.

[Barron sighs, making a face.] It's not like I'm that much older than her, but whatever. It's a little ridiculous. I mean, even my Mom is getting together with a guy. Who's totally the head of a mob family, but what are you gonna do? [Barron shrugs.] It's not like the connections would do us any harm.

[He stops scribbling in his journal.] Then I was back here, remembering being here from before and the new stuff that I'd done at home. I guess I asked the Admiral if I could go home the right amount of times or something. [A pause.] It was better than being here, even with all the drama going down.

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[sharpememory]

I know the feeling. The barge can have good moments, I guess. [Some begrudging acknowledgement that Barron had actually had a decent time on the barge some days.]

[Barron pauses, before frowning.] I remember how I feel about her. That's what matters. The specifics are just specifics. They don't mean that the rest of it isn't there.

[He didn't remember.]

[buywithme]

Comrade, it all matters. The specifics aren't just a bunch of technicalities that you don't need, they're what you can look back on as... the tangible reasons why you love her like you do. Otherwise one day, I'll be asking you to describe her to me, and all you'll be able to describe, is the feeling. Just the sense that there was someone important to you once, and that her name was Daenica and nothing more than that.

[Prefect props his hand on his chin and stares at the bar, frowning intently.]

Love isn't... it's not one big romantic gesture, or some bolt of lightning, it's a million small things that the other person does for you, or that you do for them. It's about knowing that person intently, Comrade. Eventually Comrade, you're just going to have really strong feelings about a group of people who you don't feel like you know at all...

[sharpememory]

[Barron laughed.] Wow, depressing much? That isn't gonna happen to me though. You may think that I haven't learned anything here, but I have. I maybe do need to tone it down with my power. Like, maybe only use it when I really have to.

[He means that in all seriousness. The Mysterio lesson did sink in a bit.] And even then, that group of people will still know me, even if I don't feel like it. So it'd be fine. Just fine.

[buywithme]

[And... Prefect is actually smiling a that, a little ruefully, but undeniably smiling.] Sorry, Comrade. You may not have noticed this, but I spend kind of a lot of time worrying about you.

Just... don't tell yourself that the worst case scenario is okay, Comrade. I think it's really great that you want to use your power less, so... hopefully you'll never ever get to that point. So you don't need to try and convince yourself that it would be fine.

[sharpememory]

[Barron shrugs.] I have to accept that things might get to that point and I have to be okay with it. What if I needed to use my power to save a bunch of people or something? I'd have to handle the fallout.

[He pauses before continuing.] Thanks for caring, though. It means a lot.

[buywithme]

[Prefect nods, listening attentively to what Barron's saying.] I do understand, Brother, and... I think I understand better when you put it like that? But Comrade, even though I think it's good for you to be prepared for that and to be able to handle it should it become necessary... It's all right to acknowledge that that's the worst case scenario. That even if you can deal with it when it happens, and even if you have things in place, it's all right not to accept it. It's all right to be angry that you're in a position where one day you might have to make that choice. It's okay... not to be okay with it.

[He gives Barron a lopsided little smile, at that end comment.] I couldn't stop if I tried, Brother.

[sharpememory]

[Brother, instead of comrade. Despite himself, despite his occasionally rather strained relationships with his own brothers, the term made Barron's heart leap just a little bit.]

Okay. It's a worse case scenario. [Barron kept his cool, plowing on with the conversation.] I'd probably be not particularly happy if it happened. Especially if I'd done it for a dumb reason instead of a good one.

[buywithme]

I'm really, really happy to hear that, Brother. [Prefect's voice was utterly honest, even a touch relieved.] And... really, if that's how you feel, then I think we should start talking about getting your power back.

[sharpememory]

[Barron looked surprised, because he genuinely was. He hadn't even thought to seriously consider that getting his power back would be on the table.] Really? Just like that?

[buywithme]

[Prefect gave a little shrug.] I took your power away because when you first arrived here you were using it all the time. You were making a load of enemies, and you wouldn't have remembered any of the meetings we were having. If you're at a point now where you understand why I want you to be careful, then I think I can trust you to... well, to be careful.

[sharpememory]

[Barron didn't remember when he first arrived like that, but then again he'd accepted that his journal entries tended to be somewhat biased.] I will be careful. I'll use it right this time.

[Or at least for what he saw as right.]

[buywithme]

If we're lucky, perhaps you won't have to use it at all. [Prefect posited hopefully, but... there were probably reasons on the Barge for Barron to wind up needing it. He just hoped it wouldn't come to that.]

[sharpememory]

I don't think I'd need it much. Only to defend myself, my friends and you. That's about it. [Barron said, the very voice of confidence.]

[buywithme]

Don't worry about defending me, Comrade. But that's good. Using it for self defense and to protect others? That's really perfect, Comrade.

[Prefect was extremely pleased with this development! He finally gave up on mauling his breakfast pancakes, and slid the plate to the side, rubbing his eyes.]

Once you've finished eating we should go for a drink.

[NO YOU SHOULD NOT, PREFECT AND BARRON.]

[sharpememory]

[Barron took another bite of his sandwich, before putting the rest down. If he was still hungry later, he'd just have a beer. That almost counted as food.]

I'm good. Let's go hit the bar. [Barron smiled widely.] I'm really glad that we're at this place, man. This warden-inmate thing is really working.

[buywithme]

[At some point Prefect was going to need to put them both on a detox so that if they ever left the Barge, they could not completely destroy their livers. But not today.]

Yeah, I'm glad too, Comrade. [Prefect smiled back, and pushed himself to his feet.] It's going to--

[Prefect stops himself, because he almost said 'It's going to really suck when you graduate' and that is entirely the wrong message to be sending.] It's going to really pay off for you, eventually. I hope.

[sharpememory]

I'm hoping that too. [Barron said, still feeling immensely pleased with himself and the whole situation.]

Come on. Let's get smashed.